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2010-10-03T23:11:00.004+08:00

Hey peers! I was requested to update my blog again~ haha! Was kinda busy this whole week. Gotta prepare goodies bag, uber big cake and Power Point slides presentation for LLA project. Basically my group members is gonna celebrate belated Children's Day celebration for the kids at Graceheaven hostel. Eventually I've completed the presentation slides within 6 hours! Looking forward to that day, hopefully everything goes smooth.. It's the third day being with my dearest girl. Received two letters from her yet I haven't reply once.. I'll write her 2 letters when we meet again. Her mom is coming back tomorrow, doubt we could meet and talk as often.

To my girl SSS: Don't be afraid that the feeling will fades over times or if I'll see other girls. I will promise to protect my eyes from lust and dust! HAHA hmm~ be rest assured because temporary break makes the bondage stronger and strongest. Just concentrate on your studies first ya. Chin up my dearest girl! Don't get over stress out too ya. At times it may be pretty lethargic to work on but must have determination and aim for your goals. Endure and strive hard and definitely your results will be paid off ultimately. All the best sweetheart ^^,

Somehow I'm attracted deeply to her day by day already. She's different from all my previous ones. Just mere unique and special to me. She's my addiction and becoming part and parcel of my life now. I enjoyed and cherish the moments we had spent together.

I'm in L-O-V-E !~ <3

2010-09-30T22:11:00.005+08:00

Hey my reading pals! I was requested to update my deadly blog. Didn't on my desktop much so not gonna update that often. Well, recently I've been facing lots of conflicts in church and in school. Misunderstanding, miscommunication and assumption seems to be part of it. Not gonna elaborate much on it though. For church stuff, I'll leave everything to God. All I wanna do is, put my whole heart in my studies, that's it. Not gonna let things hit me down so easily. It's my holiday now~ feel like working that is related to my interests. Somehow I got the urge of striving hard for what I want in my life. Thought of learning dance, pop piano and singing classes with someone. Not gonna reveal the name out unless she allow me to. That particular someone is kinda special to me. She's like a mirror image of myself. Be it in interests, likings and a lot more. I enjoy hanging out with her, talk to her though we just know each other for just a week or so. Eventually I had found someone that can shares my feelings and common passion. I'm those kinda quiet person so pardon me if I don't talk much however I will try my best to speak up. I'm looking forward to learn new stuff with her and strive through the hardship together. Even if I imagine it, I feel full of enthusiasm! HAHA~ Alright, I shall end here. Good night my peers, cheers!

2010-08-21T17:37:00.006+08:00

Hey my reading pals! Eventually I'm back after ups and downs life. Lots of circumstances obstruct along. Basically I've decided to be a good book in front of my lecturers. Initially, I thought one of my lecturer dislike me etc. So I approach her and have a good talk. I was stupefied by her words, saying "I am actually not a good book in front of those lecturers". Probably because of my attendance and my hair etc.. Somehow I was enlightened by her too. Decided to dye my hair black, cut it short etc. Doing what I am suppose to be, as a student. I chose this course, this path myself. Hence I must do my very best in it. Came to realised, I've wasted for the whole 7months doing nothing. Truancy is still part and parcel in my tertiary life. Thought I would change after graduating from my secondary school's life. After pondering for a night, I gotta sacrifice something to achieve something greater. I've made this decision is to be someone great so that I could protect her ahh.. )'; I have been missing someone uber deeply.. I won't do anything because I'm afraid if I can resist myself. All I could say is.. I'm sorry.. Hope by times, she will understand.. I don't expect much from her, just hope that she can be happy. Saranghae..

The feeling is rather intricate and devastate.. Gotta feign on smile to hide the enervated me.. Being good book in front of my lecturers is really tiring.. At times, I just need some encouragement. Not advising me, what's right and wrong. I know what I am doing just hope someone could understand me, rooting for my thoughts. Been seeking God for directions. Never thought of doubting God. In fact, my relationship with God is pretty stable. Trying to go for extra miles. I know the purpose of going church, going for care group. Friendship is also partially the purpose of going too. I couldn't have been so stable without my church-mates around me, guiding me along. So I took them as important, don't wish to have conflicts here and there. People says conflicts will bring the friendship bonding deeper. Yes I agreed with that however at the other hand, it also will deprive the closeness between us if we don't handle it well. Sometime I tend to doubt myself in their eyes whether am I trustworthy in words etc. There was once, my friends which they think they are older than me so didn't take my words for granted. I may be younger than them but doesn't mean by experiences is weak. Somehow I feel the awkwardness and odds between the friendship. I hope this time I am over sensitive..

2010-05-13T22:15:00.003+08:00

Recently, I've been alone in school. I chose to leave my friends because of some reasons. I didn't wanna say cause I don't wish to spoil the friendship between you guys. Frankly, when I decided not to join you guys. It's really heartfelt.. You guys kept asking me what happened etc. If I were to say, I think I'm just too selfish therefore I chose to inhibit everything to myself. Don't worry, I can be alone and I'm used to it. Hope that one day we could be good friend like before.. It's really happy spending time with you guys.

Fortunately, LLA was cancelled today! Hope every week could be like this manzxc! -__-
Went to CG today at Dhoby Ghaut Green. We play games, it was fun. Quite happy in fact. We started to Praise and Worship God, we were singing out loud to God. Suddenly some insensible, childish fag throw a small container of jelly thingy to us. They came and sit down watching us. Initially we didn't know it was done by them and guess what? They "shh" at us probably cause they think we're too noisy. They went off just right we were gonna end our prayer. I find it really childish and brainless doing such stuff. To the bunch of kids, please get-a-life! Stop behaving like "ah beng" like as if the whole world gonna suits your will. Get your crook brain wash and wake up from reality -.- By the way, for your information, Dhoby Ghaut Green is open for all and we ain't making much noisy! Not happy go other place. You guys look like probably 16~18 years old and I bet my maturity is beyond yours. This really turn me off seeing people wanna step "beng" yet need others to back up. If violence is the only way to solve things out, what is police for? I really pity you and your parents. Do you ever think for your parents, how would they feel if they know you are messing with nuisance people wasting away your bright future.. They will feel heartbreaking! !@#$%^&*(@^#%#~!

2010-05-08T00:35:00.018+08:00

Phew~ Examinations coming, lotsa tests these few days. I promised if I got into this course, I will study hard and I will give it my best. Revision revision -__- stress manzxc!

Recently, my mood wasn't good. Probably I'm tedious.. Today went out with Chriscia, Sophie, Jie ren and Christina. Initially we planned it nicely, thought of going Kbox, shopping, movie and dinner. I was so excited and so looking forward to it yet it turns out to be a truculent day for me.. I told them to meet at 3pm and don't be late cause the Kbox package starts at 2~6.30pm. I'm supposed to collect my pay at Parkway, 2pm and I'll meet them at Kbox instead. I afraid they are impatient so I took cab rush down to Parkway and cab down to Marina Square to meet them. I reach the counter at 3pm, I was stupefied when the lady say "No one come yet". I took out my phone and saw Chriscia's message saying they just left their house.. I got so piss off, call them and start ranting my anger on them.. I didn't mean it just hope that you guys can adjust and manage your time well. Eventually, they reached at 5.45pm .__. Have our dinner and watch movie. Decided to watch District 13-Ultimate, the storyline is still acceptable. After that, wanna do some shopping. Sadly, most of the shops is closing.. sigh,

Every week before LLA lesson, I will prepare my Itouch. Just don't bother to know what the "teacher" gonna teach. Frankly speaking, I'm sick of seeing her face.. Don't blame me by showing nonchalant attitude. You are the one who started it first. You don't even respect me, why should I even bother to respect you? I tell you what, you will never get a tinge of respect from me ever. You don't deserve it anyway. Heard before? "Respect is to earn" Before you want me to respect you, show me how you gonna gain it. I am pretty angry when I know I have already handed in my homework EARLY yet you wanna send me warning letter. You had just deprive the respect and good expression I have in you. I attend your lesson not because I am interested in your lesson. I am more concern about my other modules cause I can't get my certificate if I don't complete all modules. I do it for my sake not yours. Don't have to waste your time and go around asking about me. Don't even bother to talk to me too cause ultimately, you're are just talking to yourself.

I shall bathe and sleep now. Tomorrow gonna meet my dearest sister(Jazzlene) at 1pm for shopping then go church whee~ Good night my peers!

2010-04-28T00:47:00.016+08:00

Hey my peers! Eventually I'm back~ This is my first post for 2010 ^^, Just a short update about myself. I'm currently studying in ITE ; Hair fashion & Design course. I got lotsa lovely friends there.. I chose this course simply because I got deep passion in hair and fashion.

To LLA(Life-skill) in-charge: Please kindly organise something interesting before blaming the students for not attending LLA. You keep us back for 2hours 30minutes, for just watching videos and thought by that, we will learn something? Nah, it's bullshit. Open your eyes wide big and see. They are sleeping in class! Why? Problems lies on you teachers? Or just the students are lazy? Stop being unreasonable and stop sending those USELESS warning letters to US! I doubt by using this disciplinary action will helps. Use your BIG brains to think. Conduct something meaningful/fun so that you can catch our attention/interests! You had sent me the 1st warning letter from ITE. Well, I'm fine. To me, it just merely a piece of toilet paper. If you think your lesson might help us to learn something. For Your Information, from January till now. I learnt n o t h i n g. You ask me to do project, didn't I completed it before the holiday? Seriously, I don't know why there's such moledule call "LLA". It's rather redundant please. I would rather go home and rest or maybe work after school. Stop wasting YOUR time and my time!

Well, it supposed to be a happy post however I find it really ridiculous..
I shall off my computer now. See ya guys soon~

2009-12-06T22:51:00.024+08:00

I am back after this long and abominable routine.. It's rather poignant and tedious; why are you treating me like this.. I sincerely request you stay out of my life if you wanna empathy me.. Please spare me a thought.. It hurts deep down in my heart when you said 'you didn't love me before just like the way I am doing'. Yeah I ask for break up initially cause seriously we can't develop any love through. Skeptical around my mind asking whether are you serious etc.. I'm sorry that I was working whole day without accompanying you. However everyday, I will took the initiate to text you in the morning and while I was free. I know it's holiday for you now and hope to see you enjoy yourself after O's. You woke up daily at 2pm+ and sleep so late. Whole day at home when you're free can't you text me? I know most of the time I reply you late cause I really can't carry my phone with me during work.. I just sneak in carefully. For sure I will text you after my work, hoping to see your message after my work. Sigh, you didn't.. Can't you text me again if I haven't reply? I can't sense that you miss me really.. Is it you too busy or what? You don't like me to smoke, fine then I'll quit as soon as possible and I fulfilled your wish. My friend and I wanted to pierce septum, I seek your permission. You don't like piercing, okay I don't pierce. You said you will get jealous when I play audition with girls. I don't mind not playing with them really.. You asked me to be more confident so you will feel secure, I am trying hard.. You asked me to do something that you will feel my love for you. Okay I decided to meet you, thought that it will be more realistic. Ain't we discussing about it happily that time? We planned it nicely le didn't we? Why suddenly say you don't feel like meeting me le.. Cause you think you can't match me etc? Does looks matter a lot? The very first day of apprentice, I requested for a day leave on 9th December to meet my sweetheart. Thought it would be official and this is what I can do for that time.. Haha now you said you just like my actions.. Naive thoughts of mine uhh... Tears roll down somehow whenever I recall about it. I can't believe this is what I've received. Now you thinking of patching up with me? But why? Why is it so since you don't even have a stinge of love in me? You said I am always the one giving up this relationship.. Do you reflect upon yourself first why I chose to break? In such dilemma, I kept asking myself am I confirm with my answer.. We've been a time together persevering each quarrels, laughter's and moments. You thought that if I choose to hold on to this relationship, we will gain love by time? I didn't dare to choose to try.. I didn't dare to use my heart feeling to risk on.. Don't you feel relief after I mention 'break'? Or you just want to tie me with you for just habits or loneliness? I got lotsa unfamiliar doubts running wild... why why why?? Is this the way you treat your ex before? Obfuscated within it now, don't even love me but refuse to let go me. You still said 'I love you'. just wanna make me happy so I won't feel isolated? Is this three words came out from your mouth easily even if you don't love him? I know you seldom say that but at least you said it. Can you stop harassing me please.. Don't need you to show me empathy thanks.. I'm fragile in this plight of time..

我很想愛她... T________________T

2009-11-22T04:37:00.016+08:00

Hey peers! I'm suppose to sleep soundly by now and it's 4.41am! sigh, can't sleep as I just got home not long ago. I shall blog what I did and went today~ Well, I went for LV fam outing just now. It's really fun. Initially, I was looking much forward for this day. Hmm firstly, I can't deny that Angie is hyper active! She is our so-called entertainer if there's such word ;D She also brought her friend or maybe it's her steady [Joe] LOL! Vincent saw them hanky panky behind us hahaha! Vincent said he first saw me thought I'm older than him! T^T Yiyan and Louis were well-behaved (; though they're quiet. And I don't looks like ang moh please~ Took some pictures during the outing. Frankly, I really enjoyed myself through out. I want next outing~ (;

This are the pictures.

Went off early cause I needa pass something to my church mate. Sorry guys~ Rush back home to take things and gone to church. I shall say today service was good! Right after service, we still got corporate prayer meeting. Somehow I can't feel salvation of God within me probably there are lotsa skeptical and skeptical running upside down of my mind. In repentance, I believe God will got His own plan. After all it ends at approximately 10pm+ if I'm not wrong. Gotta stay back for some film shooting for upcoming events. Definitely not me acting, just look out of their image. I was shock when I first saw Leanne and guys. Took some pictures too~

It's Leanne! ^^
Leanne and I.

Mei hua and I.

Basically it's all about today. Gosh I shall get going now. The time now is 5.36am X.X! sigh, I'm so so tired.. Still needa work T^T seeya peers.

2009-11-13T23:15:00.002+08:00

Hey my peers! I'm back once again, don't really got topic to roll on. Well, today work as usual but something seems different that is target of LCD came second in place among all line group. Kinda proud of our group though it's not as good as expected. Fatigue of working turns into excitement now! Muahahah~

Hmm~ brothers I not sure how to say to you in real life so I'm gonna type it here. Yesterday was tedious and not really in good mood. I'm sorry if I'd rant on you however sometimes it's time to be serious please do what you suppose to do. I was demonstrating you how to fix the LCD how here you are playing around like as if I'm talking to myself.. After scolding you vulgar, your face turns dull. Not sure whether it is my fault or yours. In anyway, I apologise that I spout vulgarities on you. I didn't apologise directly to you cause I find it not my fault though.. sigh, I don't want this work cause us unhappiness it's ain't worthy. The least I took initiative to talk to you ^^

Whee~ OT is back! I can get more pay but needa work till 7pm =\ Working till this month end then I'm going to be apprentice in Hair fashion. Looking forward for the day~~ Well, I gotta go to bed now. Tomorrow needa go church at night too. Shall update if I'm free someday. See ya peers~ stay tune!

2009-11-06T22:03:00.006+08:00

O.O! Eventually I just realised people can't view my blog in Internet Explorer ._. Prolly there's some coding error in my Internet Explorer 8. Not sure about it. Sorry peers, probably you guys can try viewing it through Mozilla Firefox or Google Chrome. Sigh, troublesome! Didn't got time spare for this screwed blog test.
Tomorrow gonna get my pay~ whee!^^ however I bet it's gonna be just a little.
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Will update tomorrow, needa rest now. Tomorrow gonna wake up at 5am x.x faint* Stay tune~

2009-11-01T16:59:00.019+08:00

I was exhilarate today! Whee~ I wanna say I miss JJ Lin a lot~ ); Misses his voice, heard that he gonna have new album coming out either on December 2009 or January 2010 ^^ I was enthusiastic to work every nowadays. Probably there are friends who love JJ too ;x partly, cause the work quite slack x.x!

我還想她 - Lin Jun Jie

泪水将我淹没到底谁该难过
究竟是谁放掉这段感情
我才终于明白办不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货
请告诉她我不爱他
笑著难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话
别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答
我不爱我不痛我不懂
我的心早已掏空
真心话言不由衷
别告诉她我还想她
就让沉默代替所有回答

2009-10-30T23:39:00.006+08:00

Hey yo! I'm back, kinda lazy to update my blog nowadays. These recent weeks, skeptical seems to protrude somehow. Basically I'm untrustworthy now or maybe you prefer to inhibit by your own. Not sure though however it's rather sorrow. Rumination runs wild deep in my heart. Frankly, I realised there's tremendous changes in us. Well, in anyway you find it comfortable to voice out I'm here for you at your pace. One more month counting down to the end of my work. Hang in time-sheet today and I'm gonna get my pay on Friday. Whee~ ^^ doubt it's a lot.. cause I keep getting off! Tomorrow I'm getting myself leave and certainly it's gonna to be last. Don't wanna take off unknowingly what I'm suppose to do tomorrow and without valid reason.. This job is tiring however this is job which I enjoyed myself the most. At times, when I'm sleepy I don't really like to joke around so pardon my attitude ><'' but when it's time to be serious, please ahh.. Next Saturday is my grandmother's birthday so won't be going church. Needa go somewhere for FAMILY reunion. All relatives will be there. Define what's FAMILY mean to you? Well, family mean to me is simply is shit. No such word in my dictionary. Real family will discriminate what's your background and studies etc? Giving sarcastic remarks? I'm DREADED to go frankly speaking.. I just giving way and for the sake of my grandmother. I have to admit my studies not good, well what's the big deal? You meant studying in RI will definitely have bright future? You people are emphasizing how smart are you guys uh? Well, in academic crisis I'm sure in real society, you might not always be the winning party. Other people might be slow in academic but probably their talents lye somewhere you're working at? Who knows. In fact, mouth are yours. Respect me and I'll show my venerance too. No lifer. ==''

living in rustle and bustle daily,
yearning to escape from rigmarole routine..
Fatigue and sick!

2009-10-25T19:10:00.018+08:00

Hey yo all!~ Didn't update for ages le.. Kinda busy though.. Hmm, well I shall post my schedule up next.
Have to wake up daily at 5am to wash up etc and ready for work.. Recently have been dozing off easily._. Probably I'm too tired le ba. Didn't had sufficient 8 hours of sleep ); sigh, persevering for my most enjoyable shopping spree~ ^^ The day before yesterday, I was dismissed at 3pm after work due to my upset tummy. Decided to went home and take a rest.. Took a shuttle bus at my workplace to Tampines Interchange. Dozed off and miss my destination ~__~ I woke up, realised there's no commuters in the bus le x.x! Approach the bus driver to drop me at a bus stop.. Glad that there's a bus that goes to somewhere near my house. Broad up on bus service no. 21 back home. Manage to stay up for awhile however I still doze off T__T sigh, woke up with my heavy lid.. Realised I was at Desker Road! What the !@#$%^? Kao so unlucky); Pissed off and took cab home.. Reached home at 6pm eventually.. End work at 3pm and reach home at 6pm whoa~ Stupid me =='' Felt rather tedious..

Lastly, best of luck to those taking O's!

To dearest YL, Jiayous and strive it hard no matter how difficult it was. Don't ponder about what was the outcome about and just move on to next coming papers. I'll be rooting for you here and do what I can, to encourage you. Be confident in yourself like what you said to me before! You said you want me to have confidence only then you'll feel sense of secure in me remember? (; Urge yourself to study on your schedule if there is. Plan time wisely, don't want you to regret after O's ); Not gonna pressurize you but don't get yourself too slack nor too stress alright. Be moderate that's enough ^^ I'm certain you can make it through, determinations is required too. Gambatehh~

This week schedule 26 Oct ~31 Oct :
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Monday 7am~7pm (work)
Tuesday 7am~7pm (work)
Wednesday 7am~7pm (work)
Thursday 7am~7pm (work) 7.30pm~10pm (care group)
Friday 7am~7pm (work)
Saturday 7am~3pm (work) 5.45pm~10pm (church)
Sunday 7am~7pm (work)

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Will update if any changes* (; Seeya peers!

2009-10-18T22:47:00.011+08:00

專屬天使 / Tank

我不會怪妳　對我的偽裝　
天使在人間是該藏好翅膀
人們愚蠢魯莽　而妳纖細善良　
怎能讓妳為了我被碰傷
小小的手掌　厚厚的溫暖　
妳總能平復我不安的夜晚
不敢想的夢想　透過妳的眼光　
我才看見它原來在前方
沒有誰能把妳搶離我身旁　
妳是我的專屬天使　唯我能獨佔
沒有誰能取代妳在我心上　
擁有一個專屬天使　
我哪裡還需要別的願望
小小的手掌　大大的力量　
我一定也會像妳一樣飛翔
妳想去的地方　就是我的方向　
有我保護笑容儘管燦爛
沒有誰能把妳搶離我身旁　
妳是我的專屬天使　唯我能獨佔
沒有誰能取代妳在我心上　
擁有一個專屬天使　我哪裡還需要別的願望
要不是妳出現　我一定還在沉睡　
oh～絕望的以為　生命只有黑夜
沒有誰能把妳搶離我身旁　
妳是我的專屬天使　唯我能獨佔
沒有誰能取代妳在我心上　
擁有一個專屬天使　
我哪裡還需要別的願望

Though this song is quite outdated but it still remains a kind of warmness in me. x3
Don't know what's wrong with me nowadays hmm,

didn't know how to illustrate it out anymore..
It's gonna be inexplicable in a sense ba.

Dexter are strong! ^^ Probably not physically strong,

emotional that feign on are more essential to me..

2009-10-17T22:43:00.017+08:00

Workaholic!

This is the first day I've participated in image ministry. Felt so excited and was looking forward to serve in there. Known quite a number of people so far. I'm newbie so pardon me if you think I have made a mess out of your hair. Comment are welcomed! I'm more than willing to take advise and I'm sure I will do better next time round. The service was fantastic to me. During sermon, I dozed off halfway.. Tried my best to keep myself awake. Probably I had not enough rest. Recently I doze off easily ~__~ After service, went for dinner with my fellow mates. I was feeling isolated. Hmmm nothing happen actually but just maybe there's lotsa visitors around so they have to entertain them. I was convincing myself to understand them.. Well, forget about it. Glad to see a handful of visitors coming to our service. Though some didn't convert, I believe God will touch them one day! God is alive! Sat behind dining with Peretz, Daniel as well as Jeremy. Something really troubling my heart and mind this week. Shattered with tears during Praise and Worship. Cried in repentance. There is something that is uncertain about. Whenever I think of it, it really makes me feel lugubrious. Aww, that's gonna be girlish however I'm fragile in such thing now.. Daniel suddenly pop out a question asking me whether am I having trouble, why my face looks so sad. I was like ehh ya, ehh no no.. Didn't wanna share cause I really afraid if I said till halfway and just cry. Hmm~ well, I just share to Jeremy about it. Didn't wish to tell anyone about it though. Shared to him about something which is important to me and it's done against my will.. I felt scammed and feeling rather uncomfortable.. Eventually my tears just rolled down, sigh.. Really regret ); He shared his secret too. Whoa~ usually I didn't get to talk much with Jeremy till today. Kinda feel strong after his piece of advise. Trying to be optimistic.. And a way to avoid from reality is work! Haha, probably that's for time-being ba. God says "He do not want us to run away from problems but to face the problems." Guess it gonna be unavoidable ba. God I need you now.. Give me your presence and your sense of independence );

Lastly, felicitations to Xin Mei on choosing the right choice to water baptise! Great to hear that you're baptising ^^ Happy One year old on advance in God's child! I apologise that I couldn't manage to join you tomorrow for the ceremony due to my work.. Hope you enjoy yourself ya. Stay fruitful in Jesus and shine under His name. Continue to walk devotedly in your smooth spiritual life! Once again, happy one year old (;

Tomorrow gonna work from 7am~7pm daily till my off day which falls on every Saturday..Cover me down my hormie~ (;

In my heart, there's something that is irreplaceable..

Sometimes I felt tired in living such torturing life..

Not literally physical tired but emotional tired..

Yearning to go back to past,

however that's definitely unrealizable.

Learnt a lesson now..

2009-10-16T13:19:00.003+08:00

Somehow I just hate myself now.. Stupid me shouldn't have giving it and I know that it's against my will.. Mind running wild not sure why.. Keep thinking what can I do, sigh. Feel like crying sometimes and people just MIA like that? Why can't people cherish what he/she has now.. T___________T Felt so uncomfortable.. Not in good mood I'm sorry.. Working is the only antidote to clear my mind now..

No point swearing and cursing at you,
You changed after somehow..
You said it in your mouth and I just agreed unconsciously,
Is that what you want for now? sigh,
In my eyes, you're worst than a jerk..
Still christian some more, is that integrity of purity?
I know I'm at fault too however you just.. haiss..
Seriously I really really wanna wanna .... arghhhh! T_T

2009-10-13T17:06:00.010+08:00

WORKING LE (;

7am~7pm daily, so won't be online that often le. One day off per week.

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This week schedule :

Wednesday 7am~7pm (working),
Thursday 7am~7pm (working), 7pm~10pm (image ministry),
Friday 7am~2pm (school last day), 5~10pm (night safari),
Saturday 1pm~5pm (image ministry), 5pm~10pm (church),
Sunday 7am~7pm (working)

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Next week 18 Oct - 24 Oct

Monday 7am~7pm (working),
Tuesday 7am~7pm (working),
Wednesday 7am~7pm (working),
Thursday 7am~7pm (working), 7pm~10pm (care group),
Friday 7am~7pm (working),
Saturday 5pm~10pm (church),
Sunday 7am~7pm (working).

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Will update if any changes. (;

2009-10-12T02:05:00.012+08:00

You wanna know why I chose to broke off? Seriously I not sure whether the problem lyes on me or you.. Initially I said that I needa concentrate while I'm in school and when I'm studying. The reason is I couldn't absorb well when there's interruption obstruct. It's just a merely short period of perservere only.. Just a week plus or so? I said I will be back after my N's as promise, right after Thursday's night which is my last paper of N's. I went in 7-11 store to buy IDD caller card. I felt uber exhilarate. Text you that I will be calling you tonight and the reply was "no sorry, I'm tired".. Don't you think I had tried to get back to how we were used to be last time? After I came to realised you've already changed, that's really broke my heart. I was confused in dilemma of whether I should continue this relationship.. I tried asking you to go school and you said you're tired, lazy and boring etc.. If you would have listen to me and sleep early, rest assured you won't be tired after the sufficient 8hours of rest. Whenever I ask you to sleep cause it's late already but somehow you just rejected me. Thats the first time that I wanna talk to you and you said you wanna sleep. Is it true that you're tired or you just don't wanna talk to me? Not sure though, it's rather depressing. You know yourself, did you hide anything from me? What's our promise initially? What have you agreed?

- Must let each party know if they find each party is irritating
- Must let each party know if he/she being controlled tightly
- Must live till the end of your life if we ever broke up..
- Must trust each party being of no skeptical towards each other
- Must sms once AT LEAST a day
- Must be honest towards each party
~ Stay sweet..

Remember? sigh, ya you were asking why you're always the one to text me.. Do you realised that recently I'm the one who took the initiative to text you? You said last time when you woke up, you will definitely receive my sms.. You meant now don't have? Your whole life is upside down le. Woke up at the noon? Sleep at 4~6am? Even your mood turns moody too. Is it because we didn't contact that often and turns you to be like that? I thought real love is worthy to wait no matter how long? And it's just a week plus only, very long mah? Need to stay so close then can last? Doubt so.. True love counts by fate, counts by wholeheartly, counts by trust. Seems like there's lotsa things that are hidden deep inside your heart. I just wanna wait for your sms today and that's it. Hoping you to text me to see whether you still remember me or not. However you just replied as if it's just totally my fault. Well, if in that case.. I'm speechless. Yes, girls' thoughts and view is forever right and guys' thoughts and view is forever wrong.... Always guys must understand girls? Why not opposite? Sexist? How can I trust you when I know that you had broke so many times of my trust wall towards you? How can I trust you when I know so many things behind you? Don't wanna make me worry? If you don't say, seriously it makes me feel more useless and untrustworthy.. What am I to you.. Where are you when I'm down? Where are you when I need someone to concern me? Not sure whether sometimes those msn's private messages is it related about me.. aiya forget it la. Say so much also no use le. Give you one sentence. -> Make your decision wisely.

2009-10-10T21:51:00.005+08:00

Went church today, didn't really enjoy today's service. Kinda tired.. Wanted to celebrate Xin Mei's birthday but my mood was totally down. I'm sorry Xin Mei, hope you enjoy today (; Feeling tedious.. I find the service a little bored today ~__~ Not sure why, probably I'm tired ba. sigh, forget it. Didn't wish to mention it anymore..

Secondly, wanna to let some Christian out there know that so what if people behaves just a little of girlish? It's not about me despite must you people criticize him? Left him behind and makes you guys feel happier? I thought as a Christian, we should be more caring instead of making him feel isolated? You guys name yourselves as Christian? Don't take advantage to bully people who didn't met your expectations. He just being who he is, no point discriminating him.. Seriously I couldn't stand how people treats him. Not happy with him? Feeling discordant about his characteristic? Neither he will be happy with you too. He do share how he feel please, don't you guys understand his feeling? He's trying hard to forgive and forget, must he carrying those sarcasm of yours? Nah he don't! He don't owe you people anything la hor. Wanted to ask him to my church but he live way too far. Is he really that detestable? Doubt so, bet you're more hateful to behave such childish act. Same applied to his classmates, so what if he only interact with girls? Your problem? Anything concerns you? Get your mindset right before you give any sadistic remarks. Have some venerance towards others please ~__~

Thirdly, I don't believe in predicament however now I was sorely disoriented.. I've been dubious and assume that it will be fine after all. Seems like I would never gain your trust anymore. What makes you feel that I'm so untrustworthy? What's our promise initially? All forgotten le? Well, I wanted to talk to you about it last night however you chose to sleep than this important conversation. Perhaps it's no longer that important to you le uh. Anyway if that's what you want, I can't endure it anymore. It's difficult to understand you.. For just a moment only need to be like that? Whoa~ tremendous change uh. sigh, hope this message finds you well.

2009-10-09T23:25:00.015+08:00

Woots finally my N's is over! ^^ Had a hard time striving through, doubt I would get good results so.. didn't expect much. Initially I have been craving to graduate from my Secondary school as soon as possible so that I don't have to face books and teachers for time being however now.. seriously I don't bear to leave school especially my buddies. Though at times they're quite doing over limit to certain extent, but deep down in my heart. All those hatred have already been forgiven. Right now recollecting about nostalgic in the school life. Time really flies. There's laughter, sadness and rants among us, gladly to have them in my life. Though I might not expressing out but they're really awesome. Feeling enthusiastic and refresh! Monday, I'm gonna look for job with my buddies. Doubt there's vacancy as what I've expected so.. ~__~ roughly plot my holiday's schedule, if there's no job available then I shall practise my guitar and piano for prolly a month plus. After that needa continue to search for job. Need some income.. Recently I'm in tight budget mode. Saving money for my craving ^^ Hmm~ Now wanna urge myself to spend time with God, didn't been doing quiet time for ages le.. I shall repent ); Wanna grow more in spiritual life.. God anoint me D; Tomorrow gonna go church le.. not sure what to wear again ~__~ sigh, oh ya! Hey my peers, anyone free on 17 October which is next Saturday? My church is having interesting event! ^^ Interested to join me? Tag me to let me know. (; If you guys having skeptical uncertain about Christian, I hope I can elaborate more.. Definitely NOT TRYING to pull people to accept in Christ. Don't have to worry.. As a Christian, we can't pull people who are unwilling to accept God.. Just feel free and comfortable at your pace. ^^ Hope to see you there~ Lastly, I'm looking forward to serve in Image Ministry in church! Doing things with my passion is what I've always longing for.. Gonna meet Ace tomorrow noon before service. Not sure whether should I voice out my opinion however I absolutely sure that she's a good listener. Forget it, not gonna think much now. Let it goes with God's plan. Well, I'm tired.. Been hanging out since morning till late night. Perhaps I'm typing unconsciously x.x I shall get going now. Needa bathe etc.. Nights my peers^^

2009-10-06T17:40:00.016+08:00

Don't waste life in doubts and fears.

-Emerson

sigh, seriously I had tried my best le..

I have been inhibiting my fears and doubts, kept telling myself that I definitely I will make it through. Just awhile more to persevere. These few days, my mood was really somber.. Not sure whether the papers is extraordinary challenging this year or I'm too stupid. Lotsa teachers said this year 'N' level is quite difficult compared to past years. Are they trying to comfort us or is it the fact? sigh, Trying hard not to affect my other subjects and just move on however I failed. At this plight of time really make me feel demoralise, imma failure.. Couldn't help thinking and thinking and thinking.. Really speechless.. HAISSSS... it's intricate and inexplicable, struggling with my emotions.. T~~~~~~~~~~~~~T

Wanna tell her that, sometimes I think guy do need some lessons to wake up from reality. No point helping and helping him.. At the end of the day, you're the one who gain not him seriously. It's ain't just knowledge, it's merely a "responsibility". Sorry I felt reluctant to say it in front of you. Remember he's a guy. Sigh, whenever you pick up a topic about him. I won't be talking ba. It's in vain I guess so, I would rather keep quiet than spoiling our friendship. Really hope to speak to him face to face but is it necessary? Will he take my advise? Not sure ~__~ He's already 19 years old now.. Should manage time wisely.. Maybe there's a reason behind that they don't wanna tell you that he's coming for the r.s meeting. Not sure though, ultimately I think you should calm down and listen to their advise instead. Identify what you should do at this age of time. You're my bestie, don't wish to see you carrying burdens of his. You like him I can understand.. However he should learn to be responsible for his life ah. Don't think that you are pulling him down from being leader.. You ain't! Probably he's not trustworthy to me ba. Let him be independent.. Like what some parents used to do to their kids. They spoilt them and in the end? Eventually the kids are the one who struggle from hardship. Doubt you want this to happen to him am I right? Let him took up his own decision and trust me he will be happier if he decided on things which came out to be unexpected.

自己的心血才是值得拥有的!

2009-10-01T17:17:00.019+08:00

Squirrel? O.O!

Edited*

Hey wanna play indirect shooting uh? Oh well, come'on.. You said we're childish. Yes we're childish, so how about you? You meant you're mentally mature? At this point of time, people are busy studying for their upcoming examinations. And there you are busy playing games? Whoa~ marvellous uh! You said you feel bad when people disturb you. However do you make a least of effort to prove them anything? Harr!.. Vent your anger out uh? O.O! Touches my chest* Hmmm~ heart is pumping uber fast worr~ ); sigh, Hey if you wanna pin point people out, point those who ever said once only IF you dare. Who you think you are? Please, don't take teacher as your 'back-up' backbone. Am I criticising you? Let me think... hmmm~ AH-HAR! lights up* Orh I know le. At times, we do emphasize you to study and work hard etc.. Do you appreciate it? Doubt so, you just continue with your callous attitude. So you meant you're smart enough to learn new knowledge uh? Why do we even bother to ask you to study? Wanna compare results with you? Nah, our results ain't that good neither. Not expecting you to study the whole day, just be moderate can't you? Guess you're old enough to manage your time wisely. No one is stupid please, just the matter of laziness. Playing basketball and games with them but did you really concern about your future and results currently? They still playing around, ya of course but provided they urged themselves to study. How about you? Stack your pillow high up and reflect. To be precise, we're just left with one more day of lessons to buck up on. Well, I'm speechless. Probably this message won't wake you up now but one day you may know what's the definition I'm trying to imply now. ~___~ By the way! I hate your acute eyesight! >.> If you don't want people spout things about your blog, why not you make it private? I think it may cause you a better life. I thought blogs are meant for people to view o.o? Feeling discordant? Delete account then ;DD Win win solution~ Whee! Seriously no point discriminating people with hopeless thoughts. Hey 'mature' kid, it's time to analyse your entire lifestyle.

Work hard my peers! ^^

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

2009-09-30T17:08:00.004+08:00

To my beloved Yan Ling,

This is a post for you as promised.
I'm sorry that I've been abusing your trust towards me.
I'm just worst than a jerk.
Sorry for affecting you.
Maybe I'm just being a burden to you ba.
Till now I really don't know what I can do to make you forgive me.
I hope you can understand me really.
My intention was to help and thats all I can do.
I am.. I am.. so so sorry.. );

Monday, September 28, 2009

2009-09-28T18:48:00.024+08:00

Is this what you really want?

Is it really essential for you now and future?

Change your thoughts and you change your world.
-Norman Vincent Peale

Only if I got the prerogative to change you..

I know I've been nagging you to go school etc.. seriously it's for your own life good. You wanna survive with working salaries under your expectancy in future? Next year probably is your last year of school le. Right now I can't really focus much on you due to my upcoming N's. I'm so sorry, I'm working hard for my future wise. Maple is a game that ruins people's life. What's the point of playing and playing? Besides having high level which you might be proud in? Probably there's some reason you're in there. I used to be maple freak too. Spending approximately 4~5k sgd on @-Cash? Har! Sit back and think broadly, I think I am way too stupid. Seriously I regretted investing so much money and time in there. I can use it in many other useful ways. Skipping school, went Cyber Cafe for 12hours daily? Maple will be down one day I'm sure. Whenever I thought of my future, I told myself that I won't be so blissful to live that long. If really dead end I would have choose to suicide. Too naive le ~__~ I was hesitating whether should I drop school or not. When I first requested for drop-out application form, many teachers spoken to me. It's really touches my heart whereby I realised I'm not isolated and I'm sure I have plenty of things to learn in future. Well, I'm not saying as if I'm perfectionist now. Obstacles do happen around our daily life and I believes that's where we needa grow. Really grateful that I chosen to study. Eventually up till this year 2009, right after June holidays. I finally woke up from my lala land. I buck up my studies and chiong le. Really struggling hard. Don't wish you to be like me.. Cutting nails only please? Just cut it and go school tomorrow can? You've already changed tremendously le. Don't give up kay, success is just right beside you to grab it. You may think I'm gabbling now ultimately you're the one who can only who what type of life you want it to be. Living happily and with what you want or living with limited stuff. It's not too late if you made an effort to change. Slowly but surely, definitely you can make it. Just a year more to go! Used this to encourage myself last time. ~~IMPOSSIBLE~~ = IM-POSSIBLE

Hope you can reconsider.. sigh,

Am I really important to you?

I'm such a nuisance..

I sincerely apologise to you. T.T

I've been abominable jerk..

At times I'm serious because your words mean to me a lot.

I can't sense any feeling from you le..

Are we drifting apart already? sigh,

Friday, September 25, 2009

2009-09-25T14:23:00.013+08:00

Am I suppose to continue? T~T

Sometimes I'm thinking what's my motive, what's my ambition? What can I be, in 10years down the road? I was oblivious of what to do now. Hmmm, really really shag today.. Early in the morning, first period of lesson got mathematics. Sudden test ); I can't concentrate probably I was trying to escape from Discipline teacher ba. I was late today but I ran away ~__~ That's not gonna be my reason just wanna hide from reality.. sigh, Went in class, put bag and do test paper. Thought I've been studying past few days should be no problem but in the end don't know how to do. Brain couldn't function well.. Ponder those questions till headache. Am I really that useless? Really unbelievable that's not my ability seriously.. I've done lotsa revision on Science and Mathematics thought it would help. However seems like it's in vain.. I'm just confident enough initially but when I start to do test papers. I know I didn't do well.. Gotten back results which is below my expectations and I realised those questions I did before de.. It makes me feel gloomy and demoralised.. Really gonna break down le feel like giving up now ); Was holding up my tears when teacher go through the corrections. In such plight of time, I'm fragile.. Not setting high aim for myself le ba and doubt I will do well on N's so no much different anyway. Really lost my motivations towards studies le.. T~T Whenever I wana study, I'll feel somnolent.. Hopeless le la sigh, Glad that next Saturday, my friend gonna ask me out to study whee~ ^^ I promise myself from today till the end of N level and I urge myself to fulfil it. Pardon me for that.. sorry~

- Sleep before 11pm
- No sms in class
- Study at least 2hours excluding school hours

13days count down to the end of school~ Jiayous Dexter! );

Sunday, September 20, 2009

2009-09-20T23:26:00.008+08:00

LIFE SUCK BIG TIME!

What's life? Living happily like fairytales? Sad ending like how dramas plot? It may be simple but it's sophisticated..

I'm obfuscated now and it's inexplicable.. Urge myself to feign on a smile to contradict my emotions. I'm certain that I doing it on purpose.. seriously I have no idea what to do.. I failed to gain your trust. I affirm my feelings and I believes it's gonna be everlasting.. I've been pondering am I right to step into your life but.. I assure you that I had NEVER regret it. Actually there's nothing much I've expect of, despite I'm scare of getting myself hurt? Frankly speaking, I really really hope this may be the last time.. I don't wanna hurt you, I don't wanna lose you but why am I having burdens of fears.. Skeptical between us? I hope not.. Don't know why these days, my words mislead my intention toward others.. Probably I'm too stupid to react ba. sigh, I believes and sure that every obstacles we went through. There will be an explanation behind any circumstances. I'm more than willing to clarify it.. I'm dread to do anything now.. Tomorrow gonna pay tuition fee, I remind dad to withdraw money beforehand le. But now seems like he's gonna give sorts of reason.. Just right after I have ask for the sum of money, he directly say "why don't I work and pay up some burdens of his?" I know it's hard for you dad.. But now I'm having N level and you're asking to get a job to share my daily expenses etc? Maybe I should put myself in his shoes' and think ba however he should spare a thought for me ah.. There's just approximately 10days of schooling till N level, after which I'm gonna have a long break.. I didn't touch my assessment books and tons of homework today.. Probably I got no motivation again.. Woke up early today, wanted to teach one of my friend Mathematics but in the end he overslept.. I've been waiting since 10am? Didn't blame him cause he said he has mistaken the time slot he had given to me so.. ye.. forget it. I am willing to help if I've the ability. Well, tomorrow's plan is planned pretty good le. Needa wake up early for tuition tomorrow.. Daily routine daily routine~ sigh, yearning to take a day break.. Torments of work and headache is causing me DEATH!

Friday, September 18, 2009

2009-09-18T20:41:00.003+08:00

"Effort only fully releases its reward after a person refuses to quit"

-Napolean Hill

Went home straight right after school, decided to study.. Frankly speaking, past few days I've been slacking too much. I don't have any sense of determine and motive to study.. Urge myself to study, at least for 3hours today. By right I should be having tuition on the afternoon however tutor is busy due to some reason so changed the time till night. Thought I can study awhile, refresh my mind before tuition.. Studied till 7pm+ tutor called me ask whether is it alright to change it till tomorrow morning instead. Bet she's tired so let her rest at home. Text someone and friends about it. Just wanna let them know. But I received back in disappointment.. Read first few words, my heart was already aching.. Feeling really down really lugubrious.. Ya I know I'm always sleepy, I know I did push away tuition once but this time really not I purposely push away.. Thought I will be encourage to persevere on etc.. I was enervated by those words. I'm waiting for their apologise but no one actually apologise. Haha I think too much le. Stop being naive dexter.. I shall motivate myself then, Dexter continue to work hard, don't give up so easily especially at this time. Jiayous! ;D Be strong smilee~~~

-Loves Dexter,

Monday, September 14, 2009

2009-09-14T14:52:00.005+08:00

Today really really feeling tedious! Slept at 3am+ last night.. Thought today got paper so I plan my schedule pretty nice already. Tend to reach school at 7.40am cause paper starts at 8am and ends at 10am. After that I can go home take a nap till noon and continue with my personal stuff. Went in classroom, just rest my butt on the chair. Was ask to go hall for a 'Road safety talk' ~_________________~? Stupefied for a moment! Huh? Not having exam meh? O.O! Took out my entry proof and double check.. Kanasai! But I remember that time teacher said it's on the following Monday after the holiday.. Cheh! Just brought a pencilbox thats all ._. Listen to 2principals and 3teachers gabble! Almost doze off =='' Totally meaningless please talk so much but people still insist on doing. Whats the outcome? = waste time only ;x Thought we kids ah?! Kao! Lessons as usual. Hmmm~ uber hungry ); I go cook maggie mee^^ This few days kept cooking maggie mee x.x Lazy go out buy .__. Needa read up a little later on. I shall end here. Nights my peers!

-Loves Dexter,

Sunday, September 13, 2009

2009-09-13T23:12:00.010+08:00

Nothing much to post today so I'll post about yesterday instead. I was hopping for a breakthrough but it seems to be difficult. I tried extremely hard to change.. Been struggling for years.. Thursday till now I realised I've improved.. I failed once but I kept telling myself that I'm given a second chance. I know and believe God will forsake me for my mistake but I really don't like what I'm doing right now. I pray hard, planning activities to cover me up ultimately I just couldn't resist my temptation.. During ESS, while worshipping God. At this point of time, I came to realised that only God's strength will be able to clear my thoughts and burden. Razed in tears, really wanna thank God for that neverending love. Last but not least, you're my irreplaceable God.. I don't care what people think of Christian but you're great and thats all I really concerns of. Without God, friends motivates me prolly I'm still at cyber LAN now? Or maybe somewhere down the street loitering.. Times flies fast.. it just left with 27days till school ends. Whoa~ whenever I recollect back what I've been done during these pass few years.. I really regretted for neglecting studies at the earlier stage.. But whats the point? Despite being a playful naive student.. 'Having self-discipline and determination is essential but we needs faith of confidence to conquer one's fear' This sentence motivates me a lot. Right after ESS, went to Center Point for dinner then went to study at SMU. Hardworking hor? XD haha bhb-ing. ;x These few days CG have lotsa problems. But now kinda settled so.. peace^^ Spoken a lot to a church sister about those problems. Sorta like involves us. Just clarify with each other etc to prevent any misunderstanding. I believes this is God's plan. It brings each other a stronger bonds. Its courage me a lot. Tomorrow still got paper.. I shall stop here. Nights my peers.

-Loves Dexter,

Monday, September 07, 2009

2009-09-07T19:07:00.006+08:00

Hello,

Nothing much today ;D Shall update more if I got time.

I shall end here, seeya peeps. Nights.

-Loves Dexter,

Sunday, September 06, 2009

2009-09-06T17:44:00.005+08:00

"In times of difficulties, we must not lose sight of our achievement"

-Mao Tse-Tung

Hello,

1 more days count down to N level.. whee~ Studied for approximately 5hours? O.O Kept practising my prelim science. Completed my chinese homework too. Set myself daily tasks, MUST be fulfilled at the end of the day. It's essential especially during exam periods. But amazingly, I can't find any study pal x.x Polly they are studying without any obstacles ba.. sigh,..
I shall blog about yesterday ba. Clock strokes at 10am, urged myself to go wash up and prepare stuffs for tuition. Tuition starts at 10.30 but Joycelyn(tuition teacher) didn't manage to wake up on time. Due to some reasons. Postponed to 12.15pm. My tummy was abominable this two days ~.~ Diarrhea 12times le ._. Feeling fatigue.. Went to Joycelyn's house to take sachets of medicine x.x Smsed sis, asked what time am I suppose to meet them for church etc.. While waiting for reply, lye on my cozy bed till dozed off ._. Overslept D; Uber tired and having headaches.. Didn't go church.. ): sian diao. Sorry God.. Tonight gonna sleep early le. Hope tomorrow won't be late! Plot my bedtime at 9.30pm :D awww~ tummy pain again T~T God aniont me, give me fast healing.. Give me your wisdom, knowledge and understanding :D Thanks x3

I shall end here, seeya peers. Nights.

-Loves Dexter,

Friday, September 04, 2009

2009-09-05T06:12:00.000+08:00

Truthful words are not beautiful;

beautiful words are not truthful.

Good words are not persuasive;

persuasive words are not good.

-Lao Tzu

Hello,

2 more days count down to N level le. Today is the last day of English lesson. I was stupefied by my teacher. He actually typed out a short testimony of encouragement for each and everyone in our class. His lesson is partly the reason I come to school for. Though it's lugubrious but it's memorable day. I won't let you down ;D Jiayous!~

Dear Mr Rajesh,
I devoutly wish you to take good care of your health, even though you not longer teaching us but we're your neverending students, friendship and children. Lastly, thanks for your enjoyable lessons and knowledge. x3
-With loves,
Dexter Goh Liang En (Your student)

Woots! Eventually I've gotten back my Science Prelim paper.. Score 56/100 for it. It's a tremendous improvement compared to Mid-Year Examination which scored 32/100 ._. but thats wasn't what I expected for ); I'm aiming for at least a grade 2? x.x Ultimately I've pass my science ever since after secondary 1.. Firstly I wanna thanks God for being there for me! x3

Hoping there's someone who wanna study with me outside. Couldn't concentrate at home. Uber noisy =.= Anyone anyone? But MUST study de hor. If trying to be funny ones, please don't waste my time.. Let me know asap! );

-Loves Dexter,

Thursday, September 3, 2009

2009-09-04T08:38:00.000+08:00

Man is the product of his thoughts.
What he thinks, he becomes.
-Mahatma Gandhi

Hello,

3 more days to N level le ); Mentally prepared le. Gotten back english essay today ;D I score 34/40 for it ^^ whee~ Dexter Jiayous!

Hey pb, guess you are too free to tag around people's blog with insensible knowledge ba. Well, if you find me in anyway which make you feel discordant. Just feel free to come to me. Stop being coward over there. Not coward? Why don't reveal your real identity? No guts to say infront of me? Using vulgarities at my tagboard? Wanna find fault? Hey FYI uh, if you don't know a situation well, jolly-well shut your mouth. Immensely an imbecile trying to draft something? Say it directly to me then. You ain't trying to enlighten me by saying 'I thought church people should be love and care each other etc..? Really don't understand what are you trying to say. Did I mention anything you think I was saying my english is good? Did I said anything in which you think I'm trying to be 'kelian'? Sorts of rubbish please don't spout on me. You're disgusting and emphasizing how pathetic you are only. Wanna be keyboard heroism but your words are out of context! Asking me to grow up? I'm old enough I think. Or you meant by maturity? Guess my maturity is much much more sensible than yours. Stop being naive like as if you're doing for goodness sake. You don't worth my time alright. Stop your frivolous acts please. Wanna see how you react? Who actually started it initially? sigh,

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

2009-09-02T17:53:00.000+08:00

Hello,

Pissed off early in the morning. Science Prelim paper still haven't got back.. Not even the marks of it. Science teacher do come today but went home after assembly which is my class period.. =.= Previous days after Prelim had ended, we asked her whether is the paper is ready to give out? She said she got no time to mark. Till now? So busy? Whoa!~ Other subjects already went through corrections le.. Well, if tomorrow she's still gonna delay don't blame me being untoward. If can't be bothered to teach then why bother coming to school? So weak? Stay at home rest till you R.I.P then ._. Since secondary 1~2 I thought other science teacher won't be able to teach well. But secondary 3~4 also same. =.= Current teacher and former teacher is totally the same please. Thought you might be better. Nah you're not. Seems like our class gonna depends on ourselves le. Depends on teacher to pass? Guess it's opposite.

4more days count down to N level. Kinda scare.. sigh, having violent headache uber badly.. Trying not to consume medicine often but couldn't help.. yearning for relief of stress T~T God aniont me please ); I need wisdom. Well, my favourite english teacher wants us to promise to stay at home for this 4 days to revise. Take it as teachers' day present. We promised him. I will do my very best to perform well to show him. Frankly speaking, he really did a great job.. Thanks. Though you're fierce and sometimes your words maybe too harsh but we know you're doing for our sake uh. Anyway thanks x3 ehh.. is it too mushy? =xx

Alright, need go for CG le x.x End school at 3.15, tuition at 3.30~5.30, CG at 6.30~9
Faint! x.x
I shall end here. Seeya peeps, nights~

-Loves Dexter,

Monday, August 31, 2009

2009-08-31T10:35:00.000+08:00

The man who has confidence in himself

gains the confidence of others.

-Hasidic

Hello,

Firstly, hey Worldstar~ Piece of advice to you!~ Stop being arrogant cause you're pro in audi? Yes you can be but be moderate please. Whoa~ played for 3years uh? I see.. claps claps* No lifer.. People I don't need your empathy alright. If you guys wanna side him? Go ahead ;D Thinking broadly.. why should I sad over this thing? Nah it's not worthy. I just played for roughly 10months ever since I've quitted maple? Compared to 3 years =.= sense failed. sigh,

Secondly, if you guys wanna think that I'm being feminine cause I didn't retort or whatever. Have your limit please. Maybe I should change, don't blame me if I'm being untoward. Hey church sis, you looks awkful to me please. Doubt you got the prerogative to spout comments on my wearing style. 23years old? Wear till like young teenages? You're making me puke. Thanks for your compliment ;D You looks familiar to me too. Hmmm let me think~ oh ya!~ You know 'Ru hua'? You both looks alike uh! Like it? If don't, please keep your bloody comments to yourself. Can't resist? Too bad ;D Hilarious? I doubt so. =.=''

Why those people who ain't looks welly-groomed yet like to give sarcastic remarks on others?.. Pondering this question for so long.. Unless you're telling me that you looks perfectly good like some perfectionist! Whoa~

Woots!~ Count down on 2months 29 days to Korea trip! <33

I shall end here, seeya peeps. Nights.

-Loves Dexter,

Friday, August 28, 2009

2009-08-30T12:26:00.000+08:00

Hello,

Wheee~ I'm back! Lazy to blog this few days.. Daily routine as usually~ Well, I'm slacking all this while. Needa start to study le.. sigh, till now still on holiday mood. ); I said I wanna lock my computer up initially but just couldn't resist my temptation..

Maybe it's time to MIA le.. sigh, won't be online and no phone le ba. Dad didn't pay bill so.. line was terminated. Sorry.. wasn't in a good mood. Ya all my fault alright. I'm just being such a lousiest bf on earth. I'm sorry.. Detest myself alot..

To Yan ling: I shouldn't have accept this relationship in audi.. No point fonding me le ba. Like what you said, you don't feel any secure. We stop here ba since I decided to let go audi. Anyway best of luck to your coming Os. I cherished the moment. Thanks for your morning call too. Take care..

To bi: I.. I'm sorry.. next time don't need log in my -contradict- to send kiss le. Don't need waste your time too. Shouldn't have play back audi.. I shall stay at my fam ba. Thanks for your kind intention. ;D I'm not suitable to go into such a PRO fam ba.. Ask bro don't keep play ah. Take good care of his health and workhard. Same applied to you ah.. Must study hard ah. Jiayous! w.a.n

I end here le ba.. Seeya peeps.

-Loves Dexter,

felt so insulted.. shattered with tears,
quitted audi on 29.08.2009~

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

2009-08-25T13:55:00.000+08:00

Real knowledge is to know the extent of one's ignorance.

-Confucius

Hello,

Late for school today.. Woke up at zhunzhun 7.40am! LOL thats the time I'm supposed to reach school.. Nothing much to blog today actually. Just alil tired.. Well, I'll blog about yesterday instead ba. The whole day was rotting.. It's bibi's birthday, didn't wanna disturb her enjoying her celebration then decided to study while waiting for her to go home.. Studied for approximately two hours? Feel like sleeping.. Oink oink^^ Then went to audition to settle my character IGN and couple stuff to prevent me from dozing off =x My main character was coupled with another character that is also mine. Whee~ No more doubts le.. After that, went to help my maple's twin to advertise something.. Oh ya the previous post of mine was the advertisement. If you're interested to join, please do contact him ;D Informations is there. Hmmm~ ya changed new specs too. Its green and white! woots woots~

I shall end here. Seeya peeps. Nights ;D

-Loves Dexter,

Feeling isolated..

2009-08-24T16:30:00.000+08:00

31st August, A Whooping Fever SCHOOL'S OUT AT PLAYCLUB!!

- Only for Invites -
- Limited Tickets -
- Please do not come with your school badge -
- For further enquires of VIP guestlist, please send a request to our inbox -

The Whooping Fever Party
"The school's out Edition"

Pun intended! It's the H1N1 Season of The Whooping Fever and so as all schools have declared it, we are declaring school's out as well!
And so we, The Party Box Peeps are BACK on the eve of Teacher's Day again!
To all, you naughty students who've been giving your teachers a bad year. It's time to show them some love!
Dress up in your uniform and receive a flirtatious time in mini-detention in th priority queue with lashing lollipops thrown at you.
Get booked by our very own Discipline Mistess if you do not perform up to standards. Wink*
Be prepared for a hellacious ass-whipping as you witness there hot voluptuous ladies oops, STUDENTS we mean shake their booty!
For the ladies keep those uniforms clean from drool as you brace yourselves for the various cute boys escaping from the Discipline Master!
Take your pick, make your choice as these sly but shy boys slithers their way uncontrollably up to uou! (Pick all, we say!)
No no, not 1, not 2 and 3, but 4 Head Prefects will be parading, watching out for you naughty kids on the prowl!
Catch Th school Nerd, The Jock, The Monitor, The Punk, The Quirk, The Musician!
It's a reunion I say!
With Dj Discipline and HOD MCee Fai to run the night, what, or who could cause mischief and take over this school! (or so we think)
So come on down, run around just like you students do it best!
Register yourselves early because school's a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity!

For Tickets Reservations and/or Interested Tickets Distributors.
Contact: Damian
Email: tyson_damian@hotmail.com
Handphone: 91626406

Thank you! ;D

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Monday, August 24, 2009

2009-08-23T23:50:00.000+08:00

Action may not always bring happiness;

but there is no happiness without action.

-Benjamin Disraeli

Hello,

Whoa~ didn't update my blog for ages le. Sorry peeps. ;X Alright..

Firstly, I wanna wish my dearest bibi a Happy 16th Birthday! 16 years old le wor. Must know how to make your decision le kay. I wanna assure you that you had improved quite alot le. Continue to keep your positive attitude inturns of studies and life ya. I'll be here rooting up for you alright. Once again HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY bibi ! <3

Oh ya there's one more person I wanna wish for.. Is bibi's twinneh~ Happy 16th Birthday to Ashley~! Don't keep xia shui leh hahaha! Joking ;DD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOCELYN AND ASHLEY~

HAPPY BIRHTDAY TO YOU~

Secondly, hmm woke up quite late today x.x felt so tedious.. Didn't study today but I promised myself to study tomorrow. Gotta work today.. Kinda pissed with those bangla.. Keep say 'where's my sim card?' , 'the card got how much inside?' zzz? Didn't eat since last night till noon 4pm plus.. Uber hungry! Bought fries at 3bucks. Whoa~ alot x.x Ate le alil full le. Bro and friend still want eat prata.. Okay eat.. At night still eat @.@ bloated tummy now.. Faints* Not gonna go school tomorrow ba. Wanna rest at home since there are no lesson going on. Just going through prelim papers. Doubt I'll be able to get my science papers tomorrow too so.. ye.. Even though it's given out tomorrow but I'm dreaded to see my marks now.. Kinda scare of friends comparing marks now T~T well, maybe I'm too over-sensative. Sorry friends if I misleaded your intention. D; This few days quite moody.. I'm trying to simulate it but everything seems to have skeptical behind.. Yesterday my day was so somber! Gotten back my English paper 1 and 2 total up to be 73%. But most of my classmates got higher than me.. Went home straight after school and reflected on myself.. My eyes was welled up with tears.. That shouldn't be my standard ah.. sigh, perhaps I'm over-confident of my marks.. But my expectation was low le.. Just expect to get A1 at merely a 2%? Is it difficult Dexter? Went to CG to celebrate my sherpherd's birthday. Was looking around for present with CG mates then went in wallet shop. The first wallet I saw was a lime green wallet! So fascinated!! Without any hesitating, I bought it ;D whee~ loves green. It's made my day.. hmmm~ I'm tired le. I wanna oink soon.

I shall end here, seeya peeps. Nights~

-Loves Dexter,

Thursday, 20 August, 2009

2009-08-21T09:46:00.000+08:00

He who conquers others is strong;

He who conquers himself is mighty.

-Lao Tzu

Hello,

Just gotten back my Maths Prelim result.. Got alittle improvement, 73/100 but definitely thats not what I've expected for. Kept finding chance to get 2 more marks for distinction but failed ): Lotsa careless mistakes.. Was looking forward for my English paper two and Science paper since Monday.. Hoping to see how I'll fare this round for my prelim but sadly teacher absent, science teacher didn't mark paper yet x.x sian diao ._. Hey dude, don't bother talking to me. It's in vain. Simply ignore will do. Early in the morning, start teasing people le. Stating people's bad habits etc.. Everyone do have bad habits, so you meant you're just as PERFECT? Regarding about bad habits.. Frankly speaking, I think you're more than others to state on. Doubt you got the preorgative to spout sarcastic remarks on others. Stop being sadistic to others please =.=''

I shall end here, seeya peeps~ Nights.

-Loves Dexter,

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

2009-08-20T12:28:00.000+08:00

Nothing can stop the man with the right mental attitude from achieving his goal;

nothing on earth can help the man with the wrong mental attitude.

-W.W. Ziege

Hello,

Firstly, hey dude I don't need your comments on me. Thought you've changed.. Apparently you NEVER change. Teasing others is your hobby uh? Alright let it be then. You don't worth to be my friend too. You're merely a imbecile to me. Think twice before you use your bloody mouth to judge others. Maybe twice not enough? Hmm~ thrice or more? ;D I don't meant to be sarcastic. Is you are the one being sarcastic to others. See this post? Buay song? Come tio me if you want. Think careful how many people you have hurted them? I don't think I need to emphasize much on it. You don't have to discriminate others actually. Set yourself a good example and your grooming first! I think I'm much much more well-groomed than you. Perhaps it's from top to bottom. Stop behaving like nobody business out there. Ya it's a joke and you think its hilarious uh but you're hurting others deep down in their heart. Have your limit. Try provoke outsiders then. Definitely beaten up by them one day trust me. Only those childish? or maybe I should say imbecile friends of yours will think you're a HERO. Pui. Guess you know who I'm implying to..
Well forget it. Blowing my anger up to the top. I'm restraining myself from scold vulgar.. I'd forgiven you last time, this time seriously you will never gain a tinge of respect from me.

I shall end here, seeya peeps. Nights.

-Loves Dexter,

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

2009-08-18T22:45:00.000+08:00

The men who try to do something and fail are infinitely better

than those who try to do nothing and succeed.

-LIoyd Jones

Hello,

Hmm, I said I'm not blogging till N level ends but my zhuzhu wanna know my daily life updated here~ so I'm gonna blog everyday ;D haha

Today having Prelim Maths exam.. Kinda challenging cause our Math's teacher told us to focus more on 'arc length and stuff' I thought it would be tested in paper 2 cause paper 1 are not tested. Gotten the paper, read through~ whoa! I don't see any arc length etc de. Luckily I'm smart enough to revise others but in fact I actually focus more on others topic. Bhb-ing* Grins*~ haha alright. In the morning, Victor asked me 'normally what formula are given in paper 2?' I told him 2 formulas only! XD Cause I really can't recollect others. As what I've expected.. Really only two formulas! LOL! I was like huhh!~ wa I'm so so smart XD Joking.. Doubt I could get Ace for it so.. sigh, After exam went to have breakfast with classmates. Didn't eat actually just sat there wondering around while smsing XD multi-tasking haha. Nah I cant multi-task.. Then went home rot again x.x sms-ed zhuzhu but didn't reply ): hao xiang ta o~ Happy for zhuzhu that she's going school more often le. Hees. Slowly but surely ya. Jiayous! I'm here rooting for you ;D It's a tremendous change le. Continue to persevere on ah. <3

I roughly know my EBS result already.. teacher said 'MAYBE I'm the highest in the class' I was like Whoa~ really?! Whee~ I told some of my friends about it hoping them to encourage me to do well etc.. But in my disappointment, none encouraged me.. Feeling so demoralised.. Well guys, if you think I don't do well then I don't need your empathy to praise me. I won't appreciate it. Not try to be obnoxious but the least a 'WELL DONE!' is it difficult? hmmm~ Forget it. I'll encourage myself then.. DEXTER JIAYOUS! <3
Feeling so tired today.. By right today got sherpherding but I cancelled it.. Just wanna rest at home. Decided to take a nap. While sleeping.. suddenly one by one called me ask my stupid questions. Fed-up! Hey can't you guys give me a nice rest?! Pissed off then sms-ed my list some ~!@#$%^ Didn't wanna be like that. I respect you guys but you guys can show me some venerance too? Luckily no one reply 'put silent mode la' ._. Silent mode? Ehh.. what if people wanna contact me urgently? Use your small little brain to think please. Not try to be sarcastic but in fact I'm being considerate for those in NEED help urgently instead of calling me asking rubbish.

I shall end here, nights peeps. Seeya~

-Loves Dexter,

Abit truculent today..
Having headache too.

Tuesday , 11 August , 2009

2009-08-11T18:13:00.000+08:00

Many of life's failures are people who did not realise how

close they were to success when they gave up.

-Thomas Edison

Hello,

Today kinda felt demoralised sigh. Gotten back my prelim english paper 1 kinda flunked out to me. Disappointed with my result. 72/100 T~T Most of my friends got higher than me by ALOT! Feeling lugubrious. Really great disappointment in myself. My best english subject already scored till so low le. Can forget setting high expectations for my maths and science. Really thought of giving up le.. During EBS lesson, a teacher pass by our class that we used to call her 'mushroom'. She walked pass then I shouted mushrooom~ XD ROFLS! She come in, first aim is me le... She wanna grab me de but I run away. Miss kill~! whee~ Then reprimanded me siol. Fierce ): Dare me to repeat ah? Hmmm~ MUSHROOOOM~ What can you do to me? Rofls! She said since I'm secondary 1 didn't change till now still so childish! Lol! How the hell you know I'm implying to you? I got say your name bo? If bo then stfu. Don't bark like one there. Still say '祸从口出' worr~ Whoa~ claps* Don't use SUCH profound words and talk to me. Pui. She scratched my right hand and got no proof to prove that I say her mushroom so jollywell shut up. Wanted to report this to general office but just close one eye la. Prelim le don't wanna cause any problem. Perhaps I feel it's reluctant to go down and complain since my hand is not painful. Why bother? Not because I'm scare of YOU or whatever shit. Don't give a bloody damn about it. Old hag don't worth my time :D Really felt very shag for the whole day. Luckily there's someone who is still rooting for me. Thanks <3

Oh ya! Lastly, please do keep my blog alive~ Tag me if you visit my blog ;D thanks readers <3

I shall end here, seeya peeps~ Nights.

-Loves Dexter,

Sunday , August 9 , 2009

2009-08-10T01:01:00.000+08:00

Hello,

Today work kinda fun but very tired cause lotsa bangla getting their pay today.. Not trying to be racist ah but they're really from Bangladesh. Oh ya I work under Starhub at Little India. My job there was to write their sim card information etc. Sat there write and write and write.. Kinda like non-stop de machine. But got rest 'awhile' ah when there's afew customers. Customers non-stop coming lo. Then they talk to me was like chicken and duck talking.. Don't understand x.x Then rest awhile, while resting saw one bangla scratch his dick! LOL?! Walao so obscene la.. Infront of me somemore! Cause my writing table just at their lap height. Then awhile more saw lotsa bangla guys do that too =.= Is that their trademark? Lol! Haha to me thats the joke of today.. Whenever I recalls it make me feel like laughing.. Jokers. Tired le x.x I go pom pom and oink le =D whee~ <(^(oo)^)>v

I shall end here^^ Seeya peeps. Nights.

-Loves Dexter,

WAIT! HEY PEEPS TAG SOMETHING AT LEAST WHEN YOU VISIT MY BLOG PLEASE! THANKS =) ~

Saturday , 08 June , 2009

2009-08-09T00:36:00.000+08:00

Hello ,

Today woke up, kinda quarrel with someone.. Every single words of hers makes me feel like my heart is shattered in pieces. No mood to do anything else le ): really wanna say sorry.. Didn't meant it.. After that went out with my bro and Christopher to cut hair. Thought I'm gonna cut then don't wanna style hair then took cab to Tampines Mall. On the way there, looked at mirror. Wa! my hair machiam mushroom ._. alil short then don't feel like cutting le. Then went to buy my lip studs. Went into an anonymous japanese shop, was looking for it. Whoa~ saw it and the price of it cost like 2~4 bucks only! Cheapo~ then bought 4 for just incase haha. Then rush down to meet my CG members.. Today I'm supposed to meet them for combine sperdherding.. I told myself I'm not gonna be late for sperdherding but! I totally forget it.. sigh, seems like my 'short term memory' is getting worst.. seriously T~T God~ aniot me through ): I need your wisdom Lord~ After sherpherding went to service. After service went for dinner at Japanese foodcourt located at POMO. Kinda full didn't manage to finish it.. Planning to go for tau huey with them. Drank lotsa water.. Bloated tummy now ): Such a tiring day.. But enjoyed alot today. Tomorrow gotta take over my bro job for a day ._. from 3pm~10pm.. Bet it's gonna be very tired ba. Hmmm~ Dexter jiayous! Work hard (:

Alright, I shall end here. Seeya peeps~ Nights. (:

-Loves Dexter,

Thursday , 05 August , 2009

2009-08-06T19:26:00.000+08:00

Hello ,

sigh , pissed off .. Bought C905 on 26March . Thought it was good cause first Sony Ericsson phone with 8.1 megapixel . Now got new de ._. Bought it at 600bucks thought it was quite moderate price . Okay forget it . Initially the phone handset speaker spoilt .. Just holding it then wanna make a call .. Don't have sound x.x Needa use loud speaker now .. Okay fine . NOW THE MASTE VOLUME GOT PROBLEM ! WHAT THE ... SIMI PHONE IS THIS ?! Shitty rubbish ? Precisely it is -.- Bought it with no warranty ? Are you kidding me ? I didn't even touch the phone box after i took the phone out . Just leave it in my cupboard . Might as well just turn silent mode for goodness sake . Phone is part and parcel of my life .. How people gonna contact me with this piece of shit now ? _|_

Recently keep having headache .. Total feeling somber .. English exam essay says imagine "I'm gonna take cab to Plaza Singapura etc .." I actually wrote I took a cab to school .. Zzz? Cork eyes ah ._. Tenses fail -.- Torment of subjects .. Just couldn't recollect what I've learnt .. Revise for so long then forget just POOF!* and gone like never before .. Hais all my hardwork was in vain ..

I shall end here . Nights .

-Loves Dexter ,

Sigh ,
feeling discordant ..

Monday , 03 August , 2009

2009-08-03T21:06:00.000+08:00

Hello , Today woke up kinda feel refresh . Don't have to urge myself to wake up etc .. Just automatically . After wash up etc .. wanna went down and take cab . Saw 2 MacPhersonian then just ask them to take cab with me . Of course not trying to ask them pay la . =] Was doing homework now .. My liquid paper finish le .. Then use mom's de . Wa dam watery la . Then blog while waiting lo . Wednesday prelim le ): Kinda nervous .. Hope my useless brain don't give me any problem .. ): sigh , just persevere for the last month ba .. then can have fun le . Kept encouraging my friends to persevere on , stay determine etc .. Well , I needa show a role model ah . Hmm .. oh ya , hey Victor bro~ hope you recover soon ya~ take good care of yourself la ._.
I think the liquid paper dry le x.x

I shall end here le , Seeya peeps~ Nights .

-Loves Dexter ,

Feeling gloomily ..
Where's my encouragement ? ):

Sunday , August 2 , 2009

2009-08-03T11:14:00.000+08:00

Hello ,

Whoa~ Didn't blog for ages le . Sorry didn't really got time to blog too . Blogger gives me problem too -.- Right after my birthday I fall sick ._. But enjoyed alot . Thanks people (: Felt touched when Ace bought a Doraemon cake for me . She bargain with the uncle just for the cake that are reserved . Thanks Ace =) This is my best and memorable birthday . Even though we just friends for 3 months ? But I really felt the strong bonding of us . Hmmm .. kept having headache this few weeks .. ): stress with my prelim .. sigh , DEXTER JIAYOUS ! T~T 3 more days to prelim le .. Studying*

Hais .. Stressed out .. Really don't like the feeling now T~T Everything seems to be difficult .. ): Confused ..

I shall end here le . Seeya peeps . Nights (:

-Loves Dexter ,

Having frivolous conduct of myself ..

2009-07-25T13:26:00.000+08:00

Sigh .. Having high fever T~T Can't afford to miss school now .. Prelim is just around the corner .. God help me D: I got alot alot of things wanna blog de .. Wait till i recovered then blog ..

Tormented with flu .. ):

I shall end here . Seeya peeps . Take care .

-Loves Dexter ,

Monday , 20 July , 2009

2009-07-20T11:43:00.000+08:00

Hello ,

I'm back from 'evo-retreat' camp .. During the two days of bonding with NYP , RP and DIan . Really had fun .. I'm touched by their words . I felt motivated after Luke spoken to me about life journey . Really really enjoyed the camp and its memorable to me . Thanks God ! Loves you guys too . x33 Sigh .. Woke up at 9.45am x.x Didn't wanna go school for today le . Kinda tired .. Wanted to keep the record of going to school everyday but .. I actually broke it today . Sadded T~T Perhaps I'm typing unconsciously .. Headaches x.x

I shall end here . Seeya peeps . Nights (:

-Loves Dexter ,

Needa have a breakthrough ..

Thursday , 16 July , 2009

2009-07-16T14:53:00.000+08:00

Hello ,

Yesterday do homework till approximately 2 ? .. Before that I was doing my blog template .. Screwed up ! -.- Alright firstly , I think I'm gonna stop my guitar lesson and ministry meeting temporary .. Needa concentrate on my studies .. Just got 2 months more to prepare for my N level . Perhaps a month plus only .. DEXTER JIAYOUS ! Joycelyn , my tutor kinda enlighten my view and thought .. Now is the time to plan of what am I suppose to do as my duty of student . Shouldn't have pack my schedule till so cramp ._. Anyway thanks joyce (: Tomorrow gonna have camp le from Friday to Sunday ~ My right feet got a blister ... Needa wear slipper again -.- Yesterday burst le .. Now 're-grow' ._. God anoint me (:
I shall end here , seeya peeps ~ Nights . If i'm back home early , I'll continue to update . Stay tune~

-Loves Dexter ,

Living with rustle and bustle days is kinda fatigue ..
Just wanna escape rigmarole of my daily routine ..

Monday , 13 July , 2009

2009-07-13T22:24:00.005+08:00

Hello ,

Today kinda pissed -.- Late for school , then saw my bro , Victor .
Then accompany him .. cause he late too ._. First time saw him coming to school late sia x.x
then need run 5 laps . Then run lo . After that went back to my classroom .
Mr chua nag and nag and nag -.- machiam my parent =x Then he asked Victor and I go to computer lap .. Don't know do what ~.~ went there .. Got a class having their lesson .. There Mr chua lecture us infront of them .. So paiseh -.- Then ask me why everyday late for school ?..
I said no one wake me up =x then he say I like baby -.- Then the retired teacher , Mr lau ..
He say : "ask him whether he got hair or not ." The class laugh sia -.-
Pissed off .. then when I'm gonna go out of the computer lap .. I ask , Mr lau you got hair ah ? rofls ! =x Is he insulting or discriminating me ? Then after that is his lesson ... Frown into silence -.- Went in ask him again whether he got hair or not ? =x Just couldn't forgive and forget lo .. He dare me to say again sia O.O Say again lo . XD rofls ! He looks so flared up . =x
Look at him one kind , he still dare me to stare again -.-
No one wish to see him neither . Then my friend ask him question , I say don't need ask him la .
He sure don't know de . ROFLS ! He behind me sia =x Then guess what ?.. He really don't know then need ask Mr chua for help . LMAO ! He teaches for 10 over years if I'm not wrong ..
What is this ? ~.~ I think I'm much more cleverer than him .. Really imponderable lo .. speechless ._.

I shall end here . Seeya peeps . Nights .

-Loves Dexter ,

being ravenous of happiness ..

Sunday , July 12 , 2009

2009-07-12T20:57:00.000+08:00

Hello ,

Woots today water baqtism ~ Met friends and go to YWCA for baqtism ..

Reached there then went in the hall for a short briefing . After that , we proceed to the swimming pool for baqtising . Kinda excited (: when it's my turn le . Went down the water , WA ! the water quite cold lo .. Then 3 people pray for me and ask questions . After that went to bathe and went for dinner .. Very hungry ._. after dinner went home . Tomorrow still got school .. Need wake up early again ~.~ I shall sleep now .. Seeya peeps~ Nights .

-Loves Dexter ,

Improved in spirits (:

Friday , July 10 , 2009

2009-07-10T19:55:00.000+08:00

Heres your post Jocelyn (: ~

I'm dreaded to but .. too bad =x

Hey ..

Jocelyn Lao Da

aka Bao Yu

aka -LuvBabeh

aka CuteBa0B3i

aka mushroom head ,

don't need to show us that when you young you wear bikini de . =x

You're such an obnoxious person .. I didn't bully you wor ROFLS !

Hmmm I'm 16 ? Same as you ? XD I'm not childish =x Just like to joke around (:
B-b-but ! Only to certain people ^_^ Thats you~

-Loves Dexter ,

Wednesday , July 08 , 2009

2009-07-09T14:15:00.000+08:00

Hello ,

Late for school .. Climb in gate and peep to see whether got teacher around or not ..

KNS ! Saw Mr Mok , Mr Chin , Mrs Chua ._. all discipline teacher punishing those late comers x.x

Sat there and wait .. alot mosquito x.x Wait till dulan then climb out again .. then wanna go home.

Reach till bus-stop then saw those student go back class le -.- what the ..

Climb back school then go back to class ._. Thought that today got important lessons .. cannot miss it . x.x Then turns out to be a boring day lo .. kns . Go home sleep better .. Today kinda blur .. Thought that today got image ministry meeting x.x Then don't care .. continue play audi till 7pm . Received a MSG from Ace x.x saying 'Are you guys reaching?'

I was like O.O? reach where ? Forget today is CG not image ministry meeting -.-

Quickly change clothes and rush down to Istana Park ._. Enjoyed myself (: previously I thought of flying them aeroplane then rest at home . Cause scare I will feel lonely again ..

After my sherpherd spoken to me , feel like I should take up the challenge and face it .

After CG , went home with Jazzlene . Talk alot .. then I decided to tell her about how I feel ..

Felt much much better .. Thanks God and jie (: I shall end here .. Late le x.x Tired ._. Seeya peeps~ Nights ^_^

-Loves Dexter ,

Tuesday , July 07 , 2009

2009-07-07T21:04:00.000+08:00

Hello ,

This few weeks kinda busy .. Fully packed schedule .. rushing here and there ~.~

Kinda felt lonely now .. Seems like all my close friends are falling apart le .. sigh .,

But still I must be strong and independant . Kept tolding myself , nah you don't need them to survive . I can live by my own right ? hmm ..

Yes , friends is important but sometimes friends cause to be hatred . Forget it ..

Now I'm going to school everyday . Don't feel any bordness x.x

But feel like kinda fun ? lools ! Especially PE lesson .. But today tummy don't feel well so didn't really enjoyed . Today got N level oral x.x I'm able to speak well outside of the oral room ..

But went in ... Too nervous then keep stammering .. D: Went to friend's blog .. Don't feel good after reading it ~.~ Don't judge people by looks . I definitely will prove you guys wrong .

Lets see whos will master it first .. Liang En JIAYOUS !! Wanna break down le .. D: hais ..

Hmm .. I shall end here . Seeya peeps . Nights .

-Loves Dexter ,

struggling for existence ..

2009-07-04T10:44:00.000+08:00

Reply tag :

Paul-wk : Ya I'm fine and good ^^ How about you ?

Winnie : Hello , you're ? ehh sorry x.x

Jocelyn : Zzz what mao liang ? -.- Ni hao . lools !

Passerby : Ya I'm LiangEn . o.o

Sherman : Hello , oh my email is , immakuku .

Jocelyn : Thanks for your tag =x

Ashley : Lools ! I thought I told you before ? x.x no ah ? sorry~ =x

Ashley : Hi (: I didn't MIA ah . Kinda busy ._.

Suyi : Thanks ^^ I linked you too . (:

-Loves Dexter ,

Tuesday , June 30 , 2009

2009-06-30T16:17:00.000+08:00

Monday , June 29 , 2009

Hello ,

Today is the first day of school again x.x Kinda excited o.o? weird ._. hmm~

Reached school early ^^ Quite happy .. cause my class alot jokers =x Lools ! ..

Then after school go home .. Audi awhile .. then see time . WA CHUA TIO ! 3.45pm le ~.~

4pm got guitar lesson .. siao liao .. Don't want bathe le .. faster change clothes and zao .

Reached there is approximately 4.05pm ^^ heng ahh~ I didn't late =x Tutor haven't reach ..

Then went to National Library . Practise guitar there . Learnt a song =x hoho~ Zai kia hor ? XD joking .. ^^ After that go home .. then bathe . On computer till 11.45pm . Slack awhile .

Call ah neh to chat x.x No strength to gong jiao wei le .. wait till Zi fang , ah neh's friend call then i hang . Kinda tired .. I shall end here . (: Seeya peeps~ Nights .

-Loves Dexter ,

Tuesday , June 30 , 2009

2009-06-30T15:29:00.000+08:00

Saturday , June 27 , 2009

Hello ,

Yay~ Saturday le , can go church le . =x whee~

Always looking forward to go church ..

Suppose to meet Felicia at 4pm .

then bathe till forget what time le ._.

Quickly wear clothes and style my hair and zao x.x

rush down at 4.35pm D: sorry~

After that meet Ace and her group ..

Went for branch .. hungry ~

Ate stir-fried beef hor fun x.x waited for 15minute ..

Come le .. wanna eat fast fast , too hungry le bo bian =x

but got 4 ulcer x.x Now got one more ... D: pain -.-''

But yummy~

Then went for 'Godisnowhere' service , hmmm~

Cool ^^ after that went to eat tau huey with CG ..

Kinda piss off with someone .. Can't mention the name . sorry~

Maybe pms ba . Heck care -.-

Say till as if I was forced to join Image ministry ..

then say 'you know how to style hair meh ?'

and keep say I niang niang qiang ... -.-'' if not church friend hor ..

I will say .. 'I gay ? you sure mah nb ? You lye down , I'll prove to you .' _|_

f... Jitao sian diao .. fine lo .

If don't need me in image .. then I don't mind ..

then I keep say I'm tired , wanna go home .

Actually not tired .. Just don't wanna show my black face out ..

Forget it -.-''

No mood .. sorry .. sigh ..

I shall end here . Seeya peeps~ Nights .

-Loves Dexter ,

2009-06-26T21:42:00.000+08:00

Hello ,

Yesterday played RISK till 6am x.x
Tired lo .. then slept on floor .. till around 8am plus .

Wake up ..
O M G ..
Pain .. Whole body aching ...
then went back to sleep at chair x.x

Misses my warm and cosy bed .. ): woke up at 2pm plus O.O
so late ~ my throat very dry and pain .. headache too -.-''

then went to tabao food to eat while chit chatting with them .
Chit chat till 7pm =x dam tired ~.~ Wanna sleep early tonight ..

Took alot of pictures . Find one day when I'm free then upload ba .
I'm happy today ^^

I shall end here . Seeya peeps ~ Nights (:

-Loves Dexter ,

2009-06-26T20:47:00.000+08:00

THURSDAY, JUNE 25, 2009

Hello ,
Today ah .. hmmm , tired x.x
Kinda excited that later gonna go for outreach .

Leanne came and complete Ruth , chapter 4 .
She taught us how to share christ with others too .
Kinda embarrass lo .. I will try harder next time . (:

After that on e way back to Jacob's place . I sat alone ..
Suddenly feel like falling apart from God ...
I prayed hard and took out bible to read .
Like what i said , maybe I feel leftout ba . hais .

Keep telling myself that even if no one wanna talk to you .
Friendship is important but being faithful to not just by friends ,
whether if they are there with you .
We can serve God by ourselves even if we're alone . Amen .

God is still there for you .
Feel like telling someone i trust but ..
Seems like she's busying chatting . Don't wanna disturb her .
Just wanna pour out all my words , maybe would feel better .

I went back Jacob's place , feel like going home ... D:
I sms-ed Felicia instead , I told her everything ..
I told Isaac , my sperherd about it ..

Felt better . (: Maybe God is testing me ..
Thank God

Frankly speaking I dislike Kenneth very much initially ..
I felt that he's irritating ..

Sorry Kenneth . But after having dinner with him and Ace .
My detest towards him is like *POOF* gone . He's a interesting guy .
He played as a role of being a elder brother and a CG's leader of DI2 .

Then play ' PILLOW FIGHT ' Lools !
Was hitting each other by using pillow .. funny lo ..
Gang bang Ace ^^ cause she's the only one who brought bolster ..

*Steal her bolster and hide*
*Grin* XD

Really praise God for the two days of boning with them .
Really smile happily that night .
Loves you alot my Lord .

I shall end here , Seeya peeps (: Nights .

-Loves Dexter ,

2009-06-26T20:08:00.000+08:00

WEDNESDAY, JUNE 24, 2009

Today gotta ton at Jacob's place with CG fellowship (:

Before that was studying about " Ruth " taught by Leanne .

Completed chapter 2 and 3 . Meaningful characteristic of ruth .

After CG gathering at night ,

I spoke to Leanne about courses I gonna take next year .

I decided to take Hair fashion (: Thats my interest ..

She told me that I should be more active and talk more with my fellowship member ..

D: Not I don't wanna talk .. is I'm quiet naturally ..

I'm trying hard to change .. Just don't know why ..

I felt so extra whenever I go CG . I know I'm a boring guy ..

Give me some time ba . I'll talk more .. God , I seek your help please D:

sigh .. I shall end here , Seeya peeps~ Nights .

-Loves Dexter

Tuesday , June 23 , 2009

2009-06-23T21:31:00.000+08:00

Hello ,

Well today , kinda happy and exciting . Maybe because I gotten back my phone which is confiscated by my teacher for a month D:

Happy beacause I went to vivo city for shopping with a church sis , Jing Mei and Jazzlene ^^, cool~

Watch movie , ' Ghost is girlfriend past ' .. kinda nice . I would rate them 8/10 .

Bought tops cause no tops le D: sian ..

Whee~ Chua Ong say my wearing and style is nice ^^, blushes* haha ..

Gotta go for CG's ton for two nights or so-called ' camp ' tomorrow ^^

Bet it is gonna be fun ~ Praise GOD !~ Amen . <33

I'm happy today =D I shall end here . Seeya peeps~ Nights ^^,

Oh ya , won't be updating for Wednesday and Thursday cause I'm away .

Will update once I'm back ~ tired x.x bye .

-Loves Dexter ,

2009-06-23T21:18:00.000+08:00

MONDAY, JUNE 22, 2009

Hello ,

Wa piang eh .. today dam piss off .. dad keep kpkb me -.-

Thats why i say one day won't bark will die like that ._.

he dulan then just throw TV's , DVD's , Mio's remote control at dustbin basket . LOOLS !

I asked him why throw .. he replied ' cause too messy ' -.-''

Then sua lo . Then my bro go clear the basket x.x then he ask me where's the remote control .

I say dustbin , he like HUHHHH~ I just cleared them .. ROFLS ! joker x.x

Then went out with Jazzlene , my sis (: to KFC to eat lunch .

Went sheng siong supermarket and fairprice to shop .

Kinda fun and shiok =x haha ..

But still enjoyed myself though I'm pissed off with dad -.-'' Mood spoiler ..

Hmm i shall end here (: Seeya peeps ~ Nights ^^,

-Loves Dexter ,

Sunday , June 21 , 2009

2009-06-22T12:17:00.000+08:00

Hello ,

Today kinda bored .. rotting at home ..

was watching video and audi-ing all along ..

Then at night went cheers buy snacks , total cost me 35 bucks x.x

zhun zhun 35bucks =x but still shiok , got snacks to eat ^_^ yummy~

Thought can watch video while enjoying my snacks .. then dad come kp me -.-

ask me off computer .. keep say , help him save electric etc .. pissed off .

Kp back , say computer electric got expensive till where sia ..

Everyday bark , no wonder my bros don't want celebrate fathers' day with him .. Rofls !

One day won't bark as if will die -.- sigh ..

I shall end here . Tiring day ~ Seeya peeps (:

-Loves Dexter ,

Saturday , June 20 , 2009

2009-06-21T10:25:00.000+08:00

This picture was taken at toilet today =x

Hmmm , oh ya .. Thanks ah neh for the compliment ^_^

Don't feel like going to church today ..

But I just go because i remembered Liyan says " When trouble comes , that is the time wants you to attend church instead of escape ".

Then went there , I really felt the salvation of . Really cool .
The lighting , the drama as well as the praise and worshiping were extreme ..

Praise God ^_^ kinda tired .. hmm I shall end here (: Seeya peeps .
-Loves Dexter ,

2009-06-20T16:15:00.000+08:00

Hello.
This is Amide aka Dexter / Neh's sis =D

Helping Neh to start the ball rolling since he gotten no topic.

Well, lets see.
Currently he has been going to the church frequently. Keen to learn guitar. So do guide him along eh =D

Actually I gotten no topic to write as well. Just wanna disiao him nia.

To me, neh is a great guy. A guy who know his sense of clothing, with maturity mindset when it comes to the time to be serious in and so on.

It'd be better for you people out there to understand him yourself rather than have me saying out ba.

Guess thats all. End of post 1 =X
* I stole neh's 1st post *
-grins-